I Wanted to Change the Trajectory of My Life

I Wanted to Change the Trajectory of My Life

Finding My Golden Center

People often ask why I made the decision to lose weight. At the golden center of it was my health and wellness. For years, I knew what I should be doing, but I didn’t know how to do it and sustain it. Because this is such a hard process, people need to find a why, a golden center for making the change.

My golden center comes into focus most profoundly between 10:00 pm and 6:00 am, when I no longer live in fear about what my choices were doing to me, when I feel freedom from a lifelong conflict around food. I knew nutrition and health facts as well as anyone, if not better than most. But, I could not find a way to act on what I knew.

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Eat When Hungry: My Journey into Shadows, Episode 2
Foreshadows of My Shadows: I Felt “Fat” First

Foreshadows of My Shadows: I Felt “Fat” First

My Hunger Drive and Childhood: Feeling the Force of Addictive Foods

Weight has been a lifelong struggle for me, starting in my childhood. Third grade is my first memory of obesity — even if obesity was not yet part of my reality. This was the year that foreshadowed my future struggle with weight.

Because of the way food in the standard American diet makes me feel, I felt obese before I was obese.

In childhood, this feeling was closely connected with eating potato chips, candy, and pizza without being unable to stop. In truth, I could list hundreds of foods that have caused me problems.

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