Choose Health: Fail for Success Series, 1

Choose Health: Fail for Success Series, 1

SHADOW BOXING

Fighting Myself for Myself: Failing Within Boundaries

I am in the middle of several back-to-back travel experiences that make it difficult to keep a health routine. And, I am in the busy season in a new job that I am still learning. This is a recipe for failing grandly.

I have a history of failing grandly in times like this. The details were different, but the feeling was the same. To stay successful, I have had to let some things go and keep my eye on the big things for long-term success. And, I have fallen off my usual game – within boundaries of short-term failures that make long-term successes possible.

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I Wanted to Change the Trajectory of My Life

I Wanted to Change the Trajectory of My Life

Finding My Golden Center

People often ask why I made the decision to lose weight. At the golden center of it was my health and wellness. For years, I knew what I should be doing, but I didn’t know how to do it and sustain it. Because this is such a hard process, people need to find a why, a golden center for making the change.

My golden center comes into focus most profoundly between 10:00 pm and 6:00 am, when I no longer live in fear about what my choices were doing to me, when I feel freedom from a lifelong conflict around food. I knew nutrition and health facts as well as anyone, if not better than most. But, I could not find a way to act on what I knew.

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Eat When Hungry: My Journey into Shadows, Episode 2
Foreshadows of My Shadows: I Felt “Fat” First

Foreshadows of My Shadows: I Felt “Fat” First

My Hunger Drive and Childhood: Feeling the Force of Addictive Foods

Weight has been a lifelong struggle for me, starting in my childhood. Third grade is my first memory of obesity — even if obesity was not yet part of my reality. This was the year that foreshadowed my future struggle with weight.

Because of the way food in the standard American diet makes me feel, I felt obese before I was obese.

In childhood, this feeling was closely connected with eating potato chips, candy, and pizza without being unable to stop. In truth, I could list hundreds of foods that have caused me problems.

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Defy My Own expectations: Travel Edition

Defy My Own expectations: Travel Edition

Choosing Health When Traveling

Making healthy choices when I travel has always been difficult. I have failed so many times that I still expect to fail. So, this trip is about defying my own expectations.

This week, I travel for work. I have distinct struggles before, during, and after a trip. I was doing okay until I heard I was going to be traveling into Hurricane Hilary.

I am not sure what about Hurricane Hilary prompted me to run for the cashews and bananas, but she did! And, so I failed. But, I failed according to plan.

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