Satiation: Discovering a New Sensuality

Satiation. I love this word and have only recently started to understand its meaning around my hunger drive.

Satiation is the pinnacle of what it means to fulfill the hunger drive, to eat when hungry. Satiation is the linchpin of my long-term success.

Discovering satiation was a confusing, complex process. I had lost half my weight and had maintained that weight loss for more than a year.

Yet, I was flailing and careening all over a razor blade even though the numbers on the scale held steady.

I was desperately trying not to fall into the abysses where one of my shadow selves ruled — either through the excesses of food addiction and binge eating, or the deprivations of anorexic restriction.

I had no idea how to maintain my success.