She Showed up at the Gym
Face Shadows to Transform Shadows
Going to the gym after losing 100 pounds was an important step for me – especially since I still had significant weight left to lose.
Things were just opening up after Covid, and everything felt vulnerable. I felt raw and vulnerable.
Taking yet another first step was hard, perhaps harder because going to the gym is such a public action. I have never been athletic, and I had certainly never worked with a trainer.
Healthy Eating Royalty: Purple Cabbage
Purple Cabbage: A Quiet and Underrated Leader
In the plant-based world, leafy greens get a lot of attention for their health benefits. Most certainly, I have heard that message over the past few years. I eat leafy greens daily.
Mentally, I aways include purple cabbage as part of the leafy green family, even though neither “leafy” or “green” applies to purple cabbage. But, cabbage is used in similar ways as leafy greens, and purple cabbage embodies quiet strength in this world from a health perspective.
Self-Talk and Strategies for Work-Life Balance
Lose a Few Battles to Win the War: Navigating Life’s Busy times
Life gets crazy, and there are times when the battle to maintain a work-life balance feels impossible around my overall goal: Eat When Hungry.
For most of my life, I have thrown in the towel during times of work-life business. To be clear, I ate too many unhealthy foods in too high of quantities.
Rebalance with Ready-to-Eat Foods after a Long Weekend
Rebalance with Ready-to-Eat Greens and Fruits
Despite my best intentions, my meals got sloppy over the long weekend. My balance of the foods got off, and I had too much fruit and too many higher calorie density foods, such as nuts.
This is a normal part of getting off balance for me. Today, I am readjusting. When I went to the store, I prioritized fresh greens and fresh fruits that are ready to eat, so I can find a sense of balance again.
Living Under Seige: Winning the Battle
Living Under Siege: Face Failure
The battle to center my own health and wellness has been a lifelong one. For years, I failed against the pull of rich, unhealthy foods. No matter how much I wanted to live a healthy life, I was living under siege and could not find a way out of this battle.
Facing failure has meant acknowledging how deeply these foods impact me. I had to reject society's messages of moderation around these foods and had to leave them behind altogether.
Change: Just Start Someplace
I have lost half my weight and have maintained that weight loss for several years. While I now eat a fully plant-based diet, I ate some animal products for a while when I was first starting out, and I was comfortable doing so.
Entering the plant-based world does not need to be an all-or-nothing decision — especially if it is going to keep you from making healthy changes in your life.
Take One Small, Short Step at a Time
I have been thinking about the purpose of Transform Shadows and where to go with it now that I have this endeavor up and running.
When I first made my story and website public, I had decided on two seemingly contradictory timelines to guide myself through breaking my silence.
These timelines show my ongoing learning around making changes in small, short steps.
I can shut this down at any time.
Even though I no longer see my weight as a character flaw, I worried about how social stigmas around weight, obesity, and disordered eating patterns would impact me.
Giving myself a way out helps me push publish – every single time I share something.
So far, so good. My world has not collapsed. And, there are people who have shared that my words and story are resonating with them.
Thank you to those who have liked or commented publicly or privately on any of the ideas. Your support takes me to my second timeline.
I will try this for a year.